Yesterday's gone, tomorrow may never come, so live for today...

I think of this quote every time I stay out too late when I still have homework to finish like a moron, like as if my brain is trying to make some excuse for me being dumb it pops that one in. I don't know who said it, maegan (i think that's her weird spelling of that name, idk) wrote it on our message board in the dorms one day and Andrea and I liked it so much we never took it off. I like it almost as much as Empire Records quotes, which is quite a lot ;P.

Speaking of Andrea, she is the awesomest. She totally sent me a picture of a prairie dog butt sticking out of mound today. So amazing it was. I should have saved it and made it my new background on my phone. Shit. I usually remember to do that with the totally amazing photos she sends me.

Oh well, I'll stop procrastinating further now and GET TO WORK!!!!

Really, you probably should follow the advice I give you, /but/ you should definitely /not/ do as I do ;P. Like getting home past midnight when you still have to finish a law paper. Mmm, yeah...

"In the immortal words of The Doors, 'the time to hesitate is through.'" ~Lucas, Empire Records

That whole bit about life... Yeah.... :P

Yeah, so, here's the current assessment of how things compute in life with my MBA:

Sex: - for distraction
++ for stress relief and exercise
Drugs: Pot: - makes stupider in large quantities
+ for stress relief in small doses
Alcohol: - makes stupider and can cause accidents, etc.
+ for stress relief
Rock & Roll: - for distraction
- for money consuming
- for time consuming
+ for awesomeness and fun
Friends/Social Life: I haven't had much time for this after this first couple weeks so I really can't say! When I have a spot of free time my friends don't, and when I do they don't! So it's pretty much gone down the tubes.

So what can we take away from this brief analysis?

1) While sex may be a distraction for your work and studies, it is an excellent stress relief which is beneficial to your overall well-being which will help you stay in tip-top shape for school. Allow sex, just make sure you don't overdo it and save some time for studies and hw.

2) Pot and Alcohol are equally good as stress relievers, and if this is your chosen method of stress relief than go for it. Just make sure you don't over do it. Whereas too much sex just steals time, too much pot and alcohol leads to stupidity and potentially severe consequences. So if you're better off to overindulge in sex than in drugs.

3) The negative influences going to concerts has on your ability to function in an MBA definitely seem to outweigh the benefits. Whereas sex and drugs give you positive stress relief and don't require you to go anywhere, it takes much more away from you to go out to a concert and only gives you a good time. While having a good time can arguably relieve stress, I believe the stress of gas, time, and money wasted will overpower the amount of stress relief you were able to obtain from attending. So my conclusion about concert-going is to keep it to a bare minimum, keep it as local as possible, and try to go for the cheapest shows possible. I went to entirely to many concerts at the beginning of this term and it had a negative impact on my grades and increased my stress level. Learn from my mistakes!

4) You will have no time for friends and a social life outside of people within your MBA program. Count your lucky stars if you get to sneak it in every now and then. I'm sure people who live closer to their friends will have more luck than me though ;)P.

And that is all the accounting test-studying avoiding I can do for this evening.

GUTEN NACHT!!!!

Merh-ness

Merh.

Having trouble coming up with a good color scheme for this shazeizaness!

Maybe I'll end up having to whip out some HTMLness in the long run, but just no time right now.

As you've probably guessed, I should be studying right now. Another hard accounting test is coming up on Tuesday. I hope I survive! Of course it would probably help if I studied more.

I want some pot. And beer. And anything to help me avoid homework. Which I shouldn't be doing. BAD! Don't listen to me!!!

Oh well, term is up in only three weeks!!! Then when my grades come in we can really see how well I managed to balance sex, drugs, rock & roll and this thing I like to call my MBA...

Handcuffs & Corsettes

Definitely a good combination.

I should spend more time doing homework, I really should. Less time on sex. Less time on drinking. Less time on smoking pot. But really, where's the fun in that?

I really want some Mexican food right now. But when do I not? Like pizza, it always sounds good... Baja Fresh sounds awesome.... *drool*

So I did way worse on my Accounting test than I thought! Only 5 points higher than the crappy Stats test! WTF man?! So the lesson here is, what? I can never be prepared for the test, it will most definitely suck? IDK, I'll just have to restructure how I study. Luckily, I'm going over to a groupmate's tomorrow to study and will probably actually do the problems at the end of the chapters this time. Doing the homework part, that will probably help improve my grade is my guess.

I think I'm going to go binge and purge right now in thought of all that I have due next week. I say binge and purge because I've got myself all hungry but at the same time I want to throw up at the thought of all that work.

I just gotta keep on keepin' I s'pose...

Sex or Weightlifting?

Is there really much of a difference?

G-d I hurt. Sex all night is amazing, and completely the best destresser from a long week of grad school ever. Especially really really good sex. So if you're going to mix an MBA and sex, make sure it's great sex. It would be part of the whole cost-benefit analysis approach, if the sex is awesome the benefit totally outweighs the cost but in the case of bad sex it's just not worth the loss of study/homework time.

I've found that every second doing something other than class or homework is a second you probably should have been studying. That's just the way it is here in MBA land. Of course how many of us can really handle that in all reality? Not me, that's for sure. So I let some of the reading pass by and I don't try as hard as I probably could if I was determined to get solid straight A's. Problem is that so much of the grading is subjective it feels nearly impossible to get everything right no matter how hard you tried. So I say, fuck it, oh well, my time management involves allowances for sex, pot smoking, drinking and concerts, and that's that.

So what is my wisdom here? If you like pot, smoke some, but don't get stupid. If you like sex, hold out for good sex. But can pot and sex mix with the lifestyle of an MBA? So far the answer is yes, yes it can, as long as you don't mind getting below a perfect 100 on some things.

So on an update note, the accounting test didn't seem too hard, I feel like I overstudied for it and understudied for the statistics one :P. But I thought surely the stats test would be more math and the accounting test would be more BS but oh how wrong I was. It was the total opposite.

POTTY MOUTH

Yeah, I talk dirty and cuss too much. Someone should really clean my mouth out with soap or something. It comes with the school stress, the more stressed I get, the more I cuss.

BUT, I'm actually referring to the fact that I'd really like to be smoking some pot right now. That would be sweet...

Amendment to Banana-headness

OK, so I'm getting used to the uber blonde. It's not so bad after all I s'pose. I just have to know how to work with it and I'll be FINE!

P.S. I don't care WHAT this spell checker says, I'm gonna spell BLONDE with an E damnit!

Avoid Cute Boys

This is an especially important tidbit right here: Stay away from cute boys. Especially ones in your class whom you see on a regular basis. Do not get there number. Do not text them. And most importantly do not get their IM name.

They pose quite a distraction.

And for people who are easily distracted like me this is bad. PROOF be shown on the first test, for which I received the second lowest grade (at least I wasn't the worst and it was over 70, although that is still failing in MBA land.)

Actually, let's be fair, I've been working, and staying busy with concerts and friends and generally avoiding my readings and studying.

TOTALLY MY FAULT!!!!

BUT, cute boys make it so much easier to get distracted so stay far far away if you know what's good for you!

Me, on the other hand, I don't know what's good for me and I love the stress relief associated with really awesome sex. SO, I shall ignore my own advice, but if you are wise do as I say and not as I do!

And for goodness sakes, STUDY!!!!

So what does this tell us about having a life and an MBA? So far, cute boys mixed with concerts, and going out to bars with friends=second worst test grade out of 42. Not looking so hot. Will have to readjust lifestyle and try again.

(off to go do a little of that advice taking and study for test number one in a different subject, will let you know how that goes later.)

Pretty Glittering Chokeholds

Rings.

Big, shiny, disgustingly diamond-studded rings on all three fingers surrounding me. They're platinum settings and ginormous princess cut centers were blinding me all the way home. And on fingers ranging from my age to middle age no less.

But...

The thought of wearing one? Now? Like if I were to get one tomorrow? Well, I think it would go something like this:

*cough*
*choke*
*hyperventilate*
*faint*
*mild heart attack*
*come to*
*panic attack*
*unable to breath*
*faint again*
*come to*
*left over feeling of anxiety and pressure*
*nearly repeat from beginning*

Well, if this were literally to happen to me tomorrow I'd simply say "What the fuck? Outta my face psycho." b/c I'm single so that would just be weird. ANYWAYS, my point is: at this point in my life the thought of marriage is absolutely binding and suffocating and crazy. To think I was obsessed with getting married and stuff with Rach is suddenly a thing of the distant past. Once the ambitious career-driven part of me took over I realized settling down is absolutely not in the books for me for quite some time to come. The wedding game is more fun to fantasize about in the notion of a big grand party where everything is all about you and people dote on you and give you lots of presents and you get to look really pretty. I should just have a birthday. ;)P

Perhaps I was wanting to be part of the "club" of couples that I have lost so many of my friends to. Oh well. The downside to being in that club is WAY greater than the benefits. So me for one, I am staying clear.

And being surrounded by all those rings glittering in my face just made me scared.

I can't wait to be in entertainment, boo-yah!!!

Foreigner What?!

I went to a Styx, Foreigner, Def Leppard show tonight and the only songs I knew were from the only band I'd never heard of, Foreigner. Craziness! I also ran into a few people I know back in V.I.P., one was even the nurse at my doctor's office. I just can't go anywhere remotely close to Denver anymore without running into someone I know.

The crowd watching was the best part though. Lots of old people who were dressing up like they did when they were young in the 80's. This meant lots of wigs, bandanas, cut offs, stirrup pants and a whole bunch of people who don't realized they've put on an extra 60-90 pounds since they last dressed up for a Def Leppard show.

Total and utter insanity.

Wisdom Ni Ban

I know what your first thought is, and it's not what is the wisdom you wish to impart on me? The question is what the bloody fucking hell does "Ni Ban" mean??? (unless of course you're odd like me and attempted learning Japanese ;P) It means # 2, so now that I put your mind to rest I'll move on:

If you are a habitual procrastinator like moi, or if you have a tendency to fall asleep whenever you read boring text books on things like accounting and statistics, a helpful way to stay on the ball is to stay at school to get some of your work done. You are less likely to fall prey to distractions and I find I am also less likely to fall asleep in a public place where bums might mug me or fellow classmates might feel like drawing on my face with sharpies (ok ok, this is business school, I'm not in film school any more so the latter is less likely to happen but you get my point.)

HOWEVER! IF you choose to follow this piece of wisdom, let me also let you in on this piece of advice to go along with: Do Not, I repeat: DO NOT leave your laptop open beside you with your AIM on because the temptation to go and talk endlessly to the boy who picked on you in high school like a schoolboy with a playground crush who consistently annoyed and confused you throughout those years and who recently you found on MySpace and started talking to and eventually became friends with will be TOO GREAT and you will inevitably get distracted and defeat the whole purpose of reading at school. OK, so maybe your laptop distractions won't be that specific, but still, keep the AIM O-F-F. ;P

Thankyou, and goodnight.

P.S. I know I said "bloody" earlier, forgive me, I lived a brief stint in London and am considering going back, maybe.

B-A-N-A-N-A-S!

I feel like I look like a banana now after dying my hair bleach blond on Monday. I was trying to go for the whole super cute platinum white blond punk girl look and it turned yellow. Gross. :P And it doesn't help that I wore a gold dress today, at least it was sheathed in black lace, but then again you could just say I looked like a rotting banana instead.

Oh well! People say it looks fine and who am I to judge? It's only my hair that I have to cringe away from the site of every time I look in the mirror! JK! It's not /that/ bad ;)P. I'll be able to dye it again in a month and in the mean time I might look into purchasing some blonding shampoo.

P.S. You want to know how blond I am? The spell check just told me I've been spelling (blonde) wrong for my entire life. Fucking great. Just one more to add to my never-ending list of blond insults.

P.P.S. I just went back and read through and realized I first spelled "wore" from the first paragraph as "whore," am I trying to tell myself something?

Wah-Sah! Greetings adoring public!

Just kidding! I know you don't adore me, yet. Haha. ;}

So here's just a little intro: *trumpet sounding please*

I just started a super intensive MBA program which will get me through in a mere 11 months! Cool right?! Well, obviously this will come with some sacrifices. I'll have to switch gears to doing homework 24/7 and I don't know if I can handle it! For one, I'm a little ADD, so it's hard for me to pay attention in class that long, and hard for me to keep on task with my assignments.

For my first imparting of wisdom, I will say that it has helped me immensely to simply switch tasks often (because believe me I have PLENTY of work to do at any given time.) My ADD is satisfied because whenever I get bored I move on, but I am not wasting as much time! I still get easily distracted by the outside world however. The sex, the drugs, and the rock and roll. Translation please? Boys, Pot & Concerts! That's a large part of my life, so how is it going to factor into my new world?

WELL! That's what this blog is going to be all about. How I am coping with being in the new MBA environment while still trying to have a life. I thought my experiences might just be useful, or at the very least entertaining to others out there.

So there you go, there's my intro, a little piece of studying wisdom, and I'll get down to the nitty gritty details possibly tomorrow, check back often, C-YAH!!!!

Late.